this longing...this ache...

My heart aches from within as its missing you,
Right now all I need is to gently touch you,
To look into your eyes and see deep within,
Just one warm embrace,
Just to look upon your face,
You are the one I love so much.
It feels good to know that you miss me too,
But I cant stand this longing anymore.
I am longng….
to hear the sound of you breath,
to see you walk up to me, and embrace me.

I am longing….
to just be with the one who sent my heart reeling,
and brought about this downpour of emotion and feeling,
I sit here alone tonight,
And pray that you come back soon.

I've always shared mt thoughts and feelings with you,
And in lifetime, who would have thought,
That I will find someone who was just meant for me.

I can't explain the magic or why this should be,
But there is one thing that I know for certain,
That this just ain't over till one more month of longing. :( :( :(
If I had to make a wish, I'd never let you go,
Don't know what life holds, maybe there's no reason or rhyme,
And though I cannot be with you as we are now apart,
My Love, you do dwell, so deep within my heart.

Come bak soon, luv ya.

I just realised....

I was thinking yesterday that there shud be a perfect angel in me who works away without a word of complaint, making no mistakes and with everything going perfectly to plan. I doubt anyone can claim perfection every day. But then I realised that I am as flawed as the next person. I have things I don’t like doing, I make mistakes. This is just my version of simple living.
There are days when I don't feel like doing certain things and only do it because I push myself for . I could easily do them or simply leave the mess for another day. I am not perfect.

I make mistakes and forget or refuse to do things. Some things are difficult for me to do and sometimes I'm lazy ... That is okay – I am not the ideal. I’m just here writing about what I do. And while I hope that some of what I write is used to modify fragmented and stress-filled lives, if you’ve got your own version of a simple life or are working towards it, own it, respect it and be proud that you’ve made a custom built life.
A lot of my life is wonderful and even on the bad days I wouldn't change one second of it for any other kind of life, but I do make mistakes; I am not perfect.

I am just one ordinary gal who is making it up as I go. I make my own rules, and break them too, but I always try to live according to my values. I try to make what I do as easy as I can and while I thoroughly enjoy all the positive outcomes of my work, I gladly accept the negatives too. Life's like that. So if you're struggling with your life and if it's not the way you want it to be every day, accept that as part of living. Always try to be your best, but don't expect perfection.

i'm kinda falling head over heals fr u..

Words cant explain the love that I feel..
This feeling I have that's just so real
The touch of your hand,
The warmth of your kiss,
There is not a single one that I want to miss.
The happiness I feel laying in your arms,
Safe and secure, without any harm
The way you make me smile, when I'm so blue.
You always make me laugh, you know just what to do
The way you make me want you when I stare into your eyes,
With your arm tight around me I feel so close to you
You brush my hair off my face and whisper "I love you"
..and we have a big fight
But you'll still grab my hand and hold it real tight
I love everything about you
And the love you show for me
I know deep inside my heart, that we will always be
The only way I can explain this love is with everything you do
Thanks so much for everything
And for that I'll always love you....

Maybe I am wrong?!

Maybe I don’t want to see what is wrong.

Maybe its just a dream that I don’t want to wake up from.



Maybe I am wrong!



Life goes by everyday and I make decisions.

Thinking, Analyzing that it is the right one.



Some pan out well but others fail leading me to think…

Maybe I am wrong!!



I believed in black and white for a while

Then I believed in shades of grey

And now I am back to black and white again…

Maybe I am wrong!



Life hurts at times,

And sometimes I am deliriously happy..

Living the moment, I realize the consequences of my
actions -

Whether they are spontaneous or planned.

Maybe I am wrong!



Should I keep risking this attitude,

Knowing fully WELL that I may be wrong.

Knowing the consequences of bad decisions I
make.



Or should I just give up and let life flow by?

Leaving everything to the whim of nature…

For if nothing works out, at least I don’t have myself to
blame

And I can always pass the buck somewhere else.



But then if I give up on life and living – I have given up
and that is wrong!

And I cannot even say in such a situation –

Maybe I am wrong!



For I truly will
be.

forgive me plss

Living a lie or a dream it is;
reality too harsh to face

darkness engulfs me;
i want to get away

I am but a dreamer
..of happiness and love;

so i live a lie in my time
but emotions so astray..

forgive me pls .. to b askin for love
forgive me pls for my expectations

for now i know where i stand;
forgive me for letting my emotions go astray

emotions??? feelings???

Have you ever thought about the difference in the meanings of the words emotions and feelings? Most people, when asked to describe how these words are different, are stumped. A common answer is that emotions are stronger and more intense than feelings. Lots of people think the words are interchangeable.

How often do you hear yourself saying, “You make me feel . . .” and the end of the sentence depends on the feeling of the day, the hour, or the minute!

You make me feel like a million dollars.

You make me feel worthless.

You make me feel beautiful and sexy.

You make me so angry! So happy! So sad! So mad! So bad! So glad!

You make me feel like I don’t do anything all day long.

How old were you when you first had the thought that you would love to get off the roller coaster of high feelings and low feelings that you seem to have no control over?
Do you say “I feel” instead of “I think” when expressing a thought?

So what’s difference between your feelings and your thoughts?
Can you choose your feelings? Or are you at the mercy of your feelings? What, if anything, do your thoughts have to do with your feelings?

The relationship between feelings(physical=sensation), emotions and cognition is fascinating and sometimes hard to pinpoint one. We tend to mush them altogether, verbally and experientially. I think of myself as an “intuitive” person who’s perception, emotion and thought process is very quick and hard to pin down. To sit down and actually think purposely about things is hard for me and alien. Needless to say that it can create some difficulties! Oooh- sounds like a good post! Thanks….

The fake lives v live in this fake world

The whole world is fake
the faces around us
we all seem to hate
we live a lie
up until the day we die
trying to be someone we r not
not being ourselves
no matter what
all livings are lives
as a charade
letting our true selves fade and fade
why cant we all be real
tell people how we truly feel
it seems as though
this is how its always gonna be
not having a true definition of the word ME,
just simply acting to make ourselves look good
not being who we are
like we should ..

Confusion, surrounding me
My head dizzy from constant reminders
The ground crumbles

From beneath my feet
I lose all sense of stability

No one can see the pain I hide
I don't have the heart
To tell them that their world is fake
It's just one big joke

For the ones who know
Just something to laugh about
To know the truth
You must escape
The lies of the fake world

You must open your eyes
To leave the blind of your eyes behind
So only the truth remains
Otherwise this fake world
Will envelop you in fake truths
And fake lies

Until everything you knew is found
To be a lie

To Change myself is as difficult as to let the Earth and Sky meet Each other,

I am Something born to make my own rules,
If You Wanna Love Me,
Then,

Love Me the Way I am.